Reminder--What Makes Me Happy!

Oliver Helping Mom on the Computer

Alexander getting ready to go to Grandma's on Boxing Day with his new wagon.

 

 

Oh, I've had one of those weeks where I'm just feeling like nothing is going right!!  One thing after another--even though they are all pretty much small things, it's wearing me down slowly.  Hmmm...  Come on 2012!!  I think I've been feeling a bit isolated here at the moment and all my friends seem to be away or MIA at the moment.  I also just got my wisdom tooth pulled out on Monday, which involved a lot more than I was expecting.  Plus, I would Really love for things to slow down with the farm work load.  My husband has been working every day since August and with the summer hours he does not come home until dark.  It's dragging on and on with one thing after another.  Usually he has some time in January and he'll spend the hot afternoons watching a little of the Australian Open on t.v. and relax.  He's so tired, I'm so tired that we just want to curl up and sleep for the next month.  In saying that though, he did say yesterday that he intends to make February home month, which means he intends to work on all the jobs around the house like the painting and cleaning up from the building that has not happened for the last year and a half!  We just have not been able to organize such events with the boys and the farm and everything that needs to be done on a constant basis.  At least if he is home we will get to see more of him!

I often read posts from friends on Facebook that are busy enjoying "date night" with their husbands.  No such luxury here.  Living so rurally, there is no one here that we can get to watch the boys at night--maybe soon when they are just a little bit older and not so much is involved.  But then, where would we go?  There is no where to actually go out on a date.  Hmmm.  Another one of those adjusting to life in the country when you are from an urban environment.  So, it has been over three years since we have eaten out in a restaurant.  Forget taking our kids out that would be a nightmare I don't want to imagine.  Instead we have had every meal at home, which means every meal must be cooked, all dishes must be washed, no breaks, no Sundays off, every day, day in and day out. 

I miss getting together with friends and having people to share experiences with and to have conversations/ discussions.  I started this blog years ago to help me deal with living rurally.  I wanted to be able to connect with people and friends back home, but I never really break out of my shell.  I'm still very much reserved in what I express even here.  I am like that in real life too.  I let others talk, I listen, I ask questions, but I fail to share much about myself.  I have a lot I could share with people, but I often feel that I don't want to interfere in other people's lives.  Don't know why, just always felt a bit like a lone wolf character without a 'pack'.  I really do want to get to know people, it's just hard for me to keep up sometimes. 

Anyway, there goes the phone, my husband calling to tell me that he won't be back until after nine tonight as he needs to get a bull organized to get picked up in the morning.  Ongoing, please tell me when it ends???

On the other hand, the main thing I want to focus on is what makes me happy.  Not that I really need a reminder, my boys are my angels that give me joy all through the day every day.  Yesterday, when I was feeling a bit down (major wisdom tooth pain mainly) Alexander grabbed my cheeks and said, "mama, I love you--I love you all the time."  This is from a not quite 3 year old!  He really knows how to make his mama happy.  My husband said to me, "I love you with all my heart."  The thing is he is not a man that believes in lip service so he really does mean it.  I have everything, although I do miss my mom, I wish she would come and visit us again;0 Reading this mom?? 

Dang teeth, make me all reflective and soppy.  I think "wisdom" teeth means we don't gain the wisdom until we get them all out.  I've got one left.  I wasn't wise enough to listen to my dentist and get them all taken out at once when I was 19!  LOL.